March 1 is a holiday in Korea. No work and I just had my salary. Since i don't get to work this daya nd my friends are available, I took advantage of this situation. I invited them to go jogging. We jog for 30 minutes only but how my body sore after that.

We had a lot of catching up to do that we decided to go out to eat at Don Henricos in Tomas Morato, We stayed there until closing time. But the time is not enough for our chikahan session so we opted to go to Starbucks. We stayed there until 2am.

I fell asleep immediately. I was alarmed to see the text message of my mom at past 2am.. After happiness is sadness..  I learned that my cousin died a few minutes ago because of a car chase. He got shot in the head. It made news that night. Very sad to end a perfect day.

Ang bilis ng panahon! September na nga! Lapit na ang Christmas. Isip na ko ng gifts na aking pamimigay sa aking love ones. Buti na lang rin at nabawasan na ng isa kasi la na ko bf. Hehe! Di na ko ganun kalungkot. Lagi nga ko may kasama para maaliw. May katextmate at kachat pa ko para di naman boring ang buhay. Haha! Lumalabas rin ako at kumakain sa labas. Nililibang ko sarili ko at di na ko nagmumukmok sa gilid na parang pasan ko ang daigdig.

Nanood kami ng Little Man ni Donna last week. Feel good movie. Sa DVD naman, dami ko napanood. My Super Ex Girlfriend, The Devil Wear Prada, etc. Pero ang pinakaayoko ay ang movie na The Break Up kasi malungkot at nasad rin ako for a moment kasi nakarelate ako ng konti.

Bar exam na nila this month. Text naman kami once in a while pero di na everyday lalo na at di na sya nakaglobe. Nawala daw ang sim. But I think, intentional na rin para di na nya ko makatext. Well, buti na lang ay I have my pride, I will not cry. Hehe!

Malaki ang problema naman ngayon ng family ko pero masyadong personal para iannounce ko pa dito sa aking live diary. Sana lang ay masolve within the year ang aming problem. Stress na aking parents and no matter how much I wanted to help, di pa rin enough dahil di ko rin kaya.

On the lighter note, natapos ko na nga yun Harry Potter book series kaya ibang series naman ang basa ko ngayon. Gusto ko nga bilhin yun A Series of Unfortunate Events kaso di ko pa lam kung worth it na investment sya. I'll ask around first. So far, ganda rin naman ang binabasa ko ngayon na Dee Henderson series. Meron rin ako on he side na Why Men Love Bitches. kakaaliw ang perception ng author. Fun read din.

So sa dami ng pinagkakaabalahan ko, gusto ko at the end of the day, I have no time to think about negative things. Basta I just need to prepare for Christmas para maging masaya rin ito sa aking family.

Never thought time could be this fast. Three months na ang nakakaraan.. Grabe! I thought it was just a momentary setback pero ngayon sanay na ko na di kita nakikita, nakakausap at nakakatext. Guess we both moved on and the bitterness has somehow diminished.

A lot of things had happen. My family celebrated the birthday of my dad. Simple yet fun. No gifts, no frills but the thought that we were together matters more than anything.

I do not like spending my day alone doing nothing. Thanks to different television programs, magazines and books. They keep me company and they make me kill time.

Magkaibigan na kami ngayon. We meet and talk but nothing about our relationship. He accepted my decision finally and I do not know if I want to take everything back or I like it better this way. What I do not know would not hurt me diba?

I make things confusing but I think that is what makes life special. We need to add some spices and seasoning to make it interesting.

Something scary happened just this Tuesday night. My roommate had her Epilepsy attack. I thought she died and I cried because I do not know what to do. My sister and I rushed her to the nearest hospital. She gained her sanity when we were in the hospital. She didn't know what happened. It was scary and I stayed up late because the thought of her keeps hunting me. I get easily nervous when things like this happens.

I thanks God for all the little blessings I receive. I thank Him for the life He bestowed to me and my family. We may not be well endowed as others but I am still thankful for the pains, trials, failures...

Lot of things happened these past few weeks. Trying hard to keep myself busy so as not to think of problems that comes my way. No matter what I do I still can't help but feel at lost. The pain might not be as intense as before, however, I am still wondering what my life would have been if I just gave in to his request that we get back together. Stupid pride!

Nevertheless, how will I get my message across if he still treats me the same. At his beck and call, I am there serving all the things that he should be doing for me instead. With this in mind, I really need to save my ego.

I went to the wedding of my close friend. I met some of my high school barkada as well. I missed them so much. How I wish we could go back to those times when things were much simpler than they are now. I am very happy for my friend who got married and I can't help but wonder how my wedding would be. Then as quickly as the thought came to mind, I reminded myself that I will end up as a spinster. It is better than to experience heart troubles again.

What is with the cliché better to have love and lost than to never love at all? I don't think its right to have that kind of saying. It is what I call sour grapping.

Anyway, the wedding was one of the best weddings I have been to. My friend looks the ever blushing bride. There were even wedding coordinators to assist us with what we ought to do. I was very nervous because I have to read the Prayers for the Faithful. I was so sure that I am going to faint because of stage fright. Haha! But everything went on smoothly.

The Black Eyed Peas came to Manila and had their concert in Araneta. The concert was a success. The ticket costs me an arm and a leg but the show was definitely good and worth it. I have been dying to see a foreign band live in concert. One of my goals for this year is now a reality. Yyeeeess!!!

A far fetched plan that I have is to travel locally and internationally. I cannot find someone to go out with. I am afraid to travel alone. It seems everyone has someone as their travel partner while I don't. Huhu! But the year is not yet over. Miracles happen at the least expected time and place.

In an article that I read, it was stated, what is success with a cold empty bed? I may be happy with everything that is happening around me but I still feel alone. I want to be happy but happiness is not something you buy and search for. It will come. Patience is a virtue. That is what I should be doing. Sigh¡¦

When you are down in the dumps, all you want to do is stand up and pick up the pieces where you left your heart. What greater way to forget problems than to surround oneself with family and friends.

I had my month all planned out. Next week, I will be seeing the concert of the Black Eyed Peas with my sisters. I will be going to a wedding of my friend and I was tasked to read the Prayers for the Faithful at the ceremony. {What to wear? Arrgghhh!} I will be seeing friends who were partly neglected because I was too busy making time for someone who was not worth my time. Haha! Still too bitter!

I also plan to travel when time and budget permits, That is my target this year. Some of my students noticed the change in my voice. Some said I sound depressed and serious. I usually have a jovial voice because I wanted my students to feel I appreciate talking with them. But sometimes, I am searching for someone to open up my thoughts and I just have to stop myself because it is never their interest to hear my aches, right? I think it is too selfish if I just go on babbling about myself all the time This is why I am thankful for my blog because it listens without judging whether I am right or wrong.. Here I can say what is on my mind, be able to release my frustrations, desperations and pains.

Last week, I was able to meet my sexy friend, Ria. She never changed. She is still loud and funny. We were able to catch on some chickas and gossips. Haha! She is really a friend because she is angrier than me when I told her about him. Haha! I also met my friend, Bing. She listened and empathized. When I cried, she cried too. I end up laughing. She cried more than I do. Again, another true friend and I am always grateful for having met them in my life.

Breaking up is a natural thing but it is never easy. It does not mean that though I was the one who broke up with him, it is less painful for me. It also does not mean that there is something wrong with him, but something is definitely not working out in our relationship. I have stressed the importance of time again and again. Time is precious to just spend it lavishly on unimportant things. If you want the other person to feel special, you spend not only money but most importantly, time.

Time was the problem. He was never able to spare some time to be with me anymore unless I bend over to his request to meet him halfway. Women wanted to feel special. We do not like to oblige our man to do things for us half heartedly. We cannot help but compare the things other men do for their women. Those are my frustrations. He said I am demanding too much and he¡¯s selfish with his time for now. But is it too much to ask to want to spend time with him? I guess it is. Too many hurtful words were uttered. Too much emotion. Too much anger.

Who is to blame? Is it him because as he claims he wanted to be under the book all the time but has time to watch a movie and see his friends? Or is it me because I am demanding and expecting too much from the relationship? He said we are both at fault. I think he is right.

As of now, he still sends messages asking where I am and how I am doing. At times, I pretend not to receive any of his messages. I do not want to have anymore ties with him because it is still too painful. In time when I am ready to say that I have healed, then I could at least say hi.

Last Saturday, my siblings and I went to see Superman Returns. I would say that Brandon Routh is really yummy! He looks absolutely gorgeous! The movie turned out to be quite a surprise. In my opinion the story was good and deserves a toast.

After watching a movie, we went to a famous halo- halo restaurant in Angeles. Wow! I missed this kind of Filipino food. I also wanted to try other Filipino cuisines but I am already full. We went to the grocery store. My older sister together with her husband headed for the snack section where you could find Filipino snacks and chips. They said it costs a lot in the states. I would say it was like panic buying. We were able to go home late.

Sunday morning, I was already anticipating the bout of Larrios and Pacquiao in the arena. Though I am confident that Pacquiao will win, still I wanted to see the fight. When my dad came into the room, he said that on the radio the boxing match had began. Thus, I was disappointed about the delayed telecast. After learning that Pacquaio was able to bag the title for the Philippines, my older sister asked if we want to go swimming.

Without further much a do, we packed our things and headed for Fontana. I was surprised that the price of the ticket increased already without doing much renovation on the place. Since food was not allowed, our food was confiscated for safe keeping. And so they say...

The weather was soo hot! Not much people were present because of the game on tv. I watched the foreigners go under the sun without much fuss. Unlike us,  we put on SPF 50 to prevent the sun from burning our skin. But still, with no avail, we suffered the wrath of the sunrays. Nevertheless, we had fun under the sun.

When it was finally time to go home, we headed back to where we left our food for "safe keeping". Little did we know that the food we left was devoured by we-don't-know-who. My temperature rised and I attacked the woman who should and even promised that she will look after our food. I do not care how much food was consumed. The fact that she did not live up with her duty is too much. She should have not left and promised if she could not do it. I plan to make a written complaint regarding that incident to the management of Fontana.

On our way home, we are still undecided whether we eat out or just head straight home. When we were in Dau, the traffic was horrible and my ate is already having a hard time driving because she is not used to this kind of traffic jam anymore.

Good thing we went home early. My mom cooked something special for the family. Ofcourse, another Filipino food. After eating, I packed my things and headed for Manila. I was able to arrive in my apartment at around 12 midnight. I was very sleepy and light- headed because of exhaustion and lack of sleep.

Just yesterday, two things happened. First, I am now a regular employee and I got a raise. Though I was expecting more, I am still happy to receive the offer of my boss. Now I can go on vacation leave and I can have birthday leave. Yahoo!

Next thing that happened was quite ironic. I talked to him and he finally said he is willing to let me go because he cannot make the demands I am asking. Anyhow, though it hurts, I am sure, things are at its best. I just have to wait and see what will happen next.

Everyday I have to get up at 3:30 in the morning or else I will be late. This morning, I got up the usual time. I took the taxi to make sure I am not late. Unfortunately, the taxi that I got took a different route and guaranteed that I will be on time for work. I was so pissed off because when I got to the building, it was already 5am. I have to wait for the elevator and it took me a minute to go up the elevator! Not only was I two minutes late, but I paid more than the usual for my fare. It's not fair! To top it all, I have to pay for the penalty for being late. Waah! Is this an example of double jeopardy?! Grr!

Ofcourse after all the tragedy in life, you will expereince happiness. A lot of good fortune has come my way. Good opportunity though not expected. After what happened, I feel blessed that God is still there to guide me and to show me that life is still worth living. I have done a lot of thinking about life. According to the book that I am reading, happiness is hard to find when you are in search for it.

Little things should be appreciated. My sister who was living in the United States came home after a year and so. My family and I were all so happy to welcome her back. She and her husband will be staying until July 6.They went home because her father-in-law died.

My whole family were very happy to see my sister back. Even though she has not much money, she was still able to give some pasalubong. Her gifts may be simple but very mcuh appreciated. Kahit nga wala eh.

My younger sister's boyfriend stayed in our house during the weekend. THe more the merrier talaga! Though my boyfriend was not there, ok lang. It is better now because I am used to it. I am used to not seeing him everyday. I already made up my mind not to expect anything from him. Haha! Parang sour graping. But true... I am already making plans na di sya kasama. I feel happier that way. Importante rin namna na maging masaya ako diba?

Anyhow, another thing that is making me smile is the fact that I finished MY GIRL Korean Drama.. So nakakakilig! Hehe! I'll be searching for new Korean Drama na sure na papatok ulit dito sa Pinas.

Last, I am hoping that this semester for my graduate school will be easier and more fun! I am not trying to kill myself but I think this is better than staying at home and reminiscing of the days that should be forgotten.