Lot of things happened these past few weeks. Trying hard to keep myself busy so as not to think of problems that comes my way. No matter what I do I still can't help but feel at lost. The pain might not be as intense as before, however, I am still wondering what my life would have been if I just gave in to his request that we get back together. Stupid pride!

Nevertheless, how will I get my message across if he still treats me the same. At his beck and call, I am there serving all the things that he should be doing for me instead. With this in mind, I really need to save my ego.

I went to the wedding of my close friend. I met some of my high school barkada as well. I missed them so much. How I wish we could go back to those times when things were much simpler than they are now. I am very happy for my friend who got married and I can't help but wonder how my wedding would be. Then as quickly as the thought came to mind, I reminded myself that I will end up as a spinster. It is better than to experience heart troubles again.

What is with the cliché better to have love and lost than to never love at all? I don't think its right to have that kind of saying. It is what I call sour grapping.

Anyway, the wedding was one of the best weddings I have been to. My friend looks the ever blushing bride. There were even wedding coordinators to assist us with what we ought to do. I was very nervous because I have to read the Prayers for the Faithful. I was so sure that I am going to faint because of stage fright. Haha! But everything went on smoothly.

The Black Eyed Peas came to Manila and had their concert in Araneta. The concert was a success. The ticket costs me an arm and a leg but the show was definitely good and worth it. I have been dying to see a foreign band live in concert. One of my goals for this year is now a reality. Yyeeeess!!!

A far fetched plan that I have is to travel locally and internationally. I cannot find someone to go out with. I am afraid to travel alone. It seems everyone has someone as their travel partner while I don't. Huhu! But the year is not yet over. Miracles happen at the least expected time and place.

In an article that I read, it was stated, what is success with a cold empty bed? I may be happy with everything that is happening around me but I still feel alone. I want to be happy but happiness is not something you buy and search for. It will come. Patience is a virtue. That is what I should be doing. Sigh¡¦